I'm depressed, and I'll get to why in a few min. I'll just type some about what's been going on since the last entry. And, yes, I only write journals when I'm in a bad mood.

The entire summer job thingy never did solve itself. I did however still get the other summer job. It wasn't all that fun and the working hours were completely up the walls, but it was a job and it earned me some well needed money.

I had plans for those but it seems I don't anymore. I was planning to use them either for a trip to the states so I could visit my boyfriend or arrange plane tickets for him to come visit me. His parents put a stop to that though, they essentially forbid him to visit or get visited by me for as long as he lives under their roof.

And he most likely will for at least the coming two years. It's not like I've ever meet him eye to eye for the over two years it's been since I meet him for the first time online. But the thought of there being no hope of seeing him for another two years is crushing. Yet I really hate giving up.

You could say we broke up, even though I know for certain that I didn't want to. Maybe I'm just a pest to him nowadays, I don't know. He seemed to insist on it either way.

Hence, I'm gloomy and likely will be for a while.

Question is: Should I just sit in a corner and be gloomy or should I try to express my emotions and draw gloomy art?

//Arafor